Moving on

It's going to be weird not being in Amherst come September. I have been used to moving back mid- to late-August over the past four years, a time still smoldering in my mind. But this year I won't be doing that. Instead of moving to Amherst, I'll be moving to Boston (Brookline, to be exact). I'm excited to be moving on with my life and despite the resentment I have with a lot of my UMass experience, I still feel that I am leaving a comfort zone that I will not have again. Amherst did become my home, probably why my real home lost it's touch, and I have more sentimental memories there than I think I do in Paxton or at SPM. At some point I will lose the feeling, so maybe I should enjoy it even if it causes me pain or grief.

This had not come to mind until this past week as I was leaving the Cape with my friends after a week vacation. I thought about how I would not spend time with friends so freely the way I always have. UMass allowed for that, even if I did not take advantage of all my time there. I feel like moving and settling into Boston will make my life grand and change it both socially and personally. I'm still feeling more loss over leaving UMass now than I do in feeling excitement about moving to Boston.